The darkness within my heart

Loneliness fills my soul,

As I feel the air getting colder and colder,

As my heart starts to get numb and the pain doesn’t stop

All I see is darkness.

But as the last ray of light is being stolen from heart,

All I realize is that light shines the brightest only in the dark.

But then when life starts to break the broken pieces of my heart,

All realizations are forgotten,

All faith is lost,

All hope denied,

Need help but no hands to save me from drowning,

No one to protect my feelings,

No one to offer me salvation.

No one to make me feel better,

No one will no one should,

As the cold eyes start creeping up behind me

Demanding for my soul and my heart.

I am left looking for help

But I see none…….

For all the pain I cause,

For all the suffering I imparted,

For all the hate I showed,

For all the lives I ruined

I apologies

So as I accept the life I have chosen,

I weep because once again I have to lock away my heart till another asks for it……..

Because I know where this road ends,

So even though I make mistakes,

I know with solitude I will be able to

Restore lost faith,

Create some hope,

Learn to swim,

Protect myself,

Offer myself salvation,

Barricade my own heart,

And stitch a broken heart to offer to another shredder.

And to live a life full of self hatred.

Because at the end of every day I am reminded that,

To live to smile and to live to make some one smile.